Faith
If I have to reflect back on the 10 years gone by then I would say that "Life is Funny", not in a comical way but it is funny in a way that you never know what is going to happen Next?? Every time something happens, I end up asking myself "How could I have not seen that coming?". As much as we plan our life, it often takes over and makes our plans go overboard. Nobody in the world is immune to this reality. Even the most wealthy, and the most powerful are not protected. However, what separates those who live and those who exist is the search and belief in faith.
After a long and successful career in a leading Engineering Company in India, my decision to leave and be on my own was a hard one. I was expected to be in the organization much longer, but life had other plans so to say. I was at a point, where my dream and the future offered by the organization were not meeting. I could not see my future the way I wanted it to be and when you cannot see your future, you feel that you do not have one. I was exactly at this point of my life. I was in a comfortable financial position. But for me as it is for so many who live their lives (and not merely exist), it was about What Next?
It was terrible. It came at a time in my life when I was due for a mid-life crisis. I had worked reasonably well to get to a certain point. There is a great definition for mid-life crisis -
" Mid-Life crisis is when you get to the top of the ladder only to find that it is against the wrong wall."
Once I realized what I wanted to do, I mapped out a vision and the plans. Of course the plans changed numerous times as I went along and are still changing.
The initial period was trying and at times terribly traumatic. Yet even in that period, I believed in myself and I believed in my destiny. Sheer determination and lots of love, encouragement and help from my wife Kirti led me here.
Even now the journey goes on with it`s ups and downs. But with the passage of time and gain of experience, you learn to live life even if it is on a roller coaster.
Yet at times when there is the sense of frustration and loss of direction; Somewhere deep down inside there is faith which tells me that all will be well.
Yes I am learning to have faith not only in myself but also in the world around.
Hope I remember the above and manage to laugh away the moments when Life decides to have some fun at my expense.
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